Year 1.1

I wonder who still lingers at my blog (lol).

I know it has been ages since my last post, it has been almost 2 months. I managed to tolerate the first semester of my University life unknowingly, when I have the mindset of giving up on my honours degree about 2 months back.

Many alternative paths just struck my mind, I admit that they were indeed tempting enough to just submit my withdrawal application to the faculty's office, get settled down with a 9-6 M-F desk-bound job, I no longer need to worry about upcoming projects/examinations.

I am ever-ready for the labor workforce. I don't belong to those students who are still not ready for work and hence, resorting to obtain a degree so that they can avoid the harsh society for as long as possible.

I am not embarrassed to confess that I actually consulted my school's professional counsellor with regards to my case. Not everybody has the courage to seek help and I earnestly didn't regret making this decision. He is very encouraging and he doesn't persuade me to stay on when he knew I couldn't find any reason to hang on for 4 years, majoring in a field which I have no intention to further pursue in future - my ultimate passion is HR.

Not forgetting my Macroeconomics Prof, she was the one who suggested to consult the counsellor for my emotional well-being. I love her to bits although I feel nervous during her tutorial lesson. She is the one who assured me that "quitting University is not a wrong decision". Indeed, some people find no need to get a bachelor's certificate if they already knew what they want. Her assurance means a lot to me and I stopped blaming myself for not being smart enough.

I am well-aware that I'm not the only one who is currently struggling in many aspects of life. Personally, I firmly believe that the deeper meaning of life can't be measured with qualifications itself. There are so much more I wish to achieve in life, why should I let this piece of certificate determine my life?

I've seen many people (without a degree) who are leading a more meaningful life as compared to those graduates from University. With that, I hope that no matter what decision I make next year, I pray that my decision will be the right choice and not like the 2 huge mistakes I've made during my last year in Poly and enrolling myself into a course which I have 0 interest in.

For those undergraduates who are currently burning midnight oil for the upcoming examinations, press on and do not neglect your loved ones just because of studies. Life is... unpredictable & you won't wanna regret.

"Broke, fat, lazy, or stupid are things that happen when you don’t have a plan"

-Above-mentioned quoted from Larry Winget.

Just a simple post without any visuals. I am crazily addicted to the Sims 3 recently, and I relate almost everything in reality to the game. Went Kusu Island with my parents today as I detest spending my precious weekends aka off days at home rotting. I do not have the choice of studying, honestly... The last time I truly studied for an exam was 2012 August - that's about 2 years back. I'm trying my utmost best to maximize ways to keep my brain working. Seriously I can't imagine myself to be a student in August next year. It's all about a degree.

Relating to the Sims, they get paid <$200/h max even if they reach the highest track when they have no formal qualifications. (I'm holding the Sims expansion pack: University Life) Once my Sims completed a relevant degree in the selected industry, their starting pay can be as high as $100 as a junior. I know this sounds absurd as I'm comparing the society with an unrealistic game. Well, as long as you get the idea.

Ever since I'm working in the HR dept, I realized that everything is all about qualifications. RELEVANT experiences are secondary. It's just an additional increment, you aren't going to exceed to the top if your qualifications aren't there. That's why people study part-time to obtain masters/PhD. I feel so lethargic every working day despite holding the tiny position: Admin Assistant. Major salute to those who work full-time & study part-time at the same fucking time. 

I know people mentioned about "qualification isn't everything", yes to a certain extent. CPF problems are well-known recently due to the dissatisfaction among Singaporeans. I'm not into politics but I'm absolutely sure of something: If you want a good life even after you retire, you gonna work doubly hard for it because you can't just depend on your CPF savings. Not every Singaporeans get to retire and enjoy the last quarter of your lifespan smoothly. That's why we still spot those elderly taking up manual labour job. 

Things will be better if I'm born with a silver spoon. I still love my family as there are poorer families compared to my situation! Although I can't help but to envy those friends who have a lump sum of assets waiting for them (and they'll always claim that they don't use their parents money and have no interest of attaining their assets), I'm still grateful for whatever I have right now; at this moment. Because the moment I start to envy others' life, somebody out there is envying mine too! :)

Just some reflection of life.

Birthday(s)...

Sourcing for the most suitable and within the budget for a 21st birthday party is probably the "worst" task ever in the world. However, I do find it pleasurable at times as I'm not just trying to find the right product but I also manage to learn and understand how small businesses (aka sole proprietorship) works. It's pretty interesting I would say. 

Secondly, I have a fetish for cakes/cupcakes that are aesthetically amazing! These pictures don't tempt my mouth, but I truly salute those cake artists behind this artwork. (Y)

JY's birthday is in 2 weeks time & I'm only settled with the venue!! I'm not done with food, cake and the most dreading part: D.E.C.O.R.A.T.I.O.N.S. After his party, it's time to fully concentrate on my upcoming 21st party! It's going to be a huge event compared to JY's as it involves my family and relatives as well. Can't wait for it to arrive!

Sigh, I hope I have spare time to post a proper one! 

Meanwhile, for those who are planning a 21st birthday party and needs help in sourcing different caterers/quotations, feel free to contact me! I'll definitely share my knowledge with you as much as I can!

Life...

Having a love-hate relationship with my current life right now. In the midst of waiting for university enrollment (this definitely sucks because I am hesitating if I should just find a full-time job instead of wasting money on that... expensive cert), taking all sorts of part-time/temporary jobs yet I always feel cranky as waking up early during weekdays seriously suck, and I'm planning my 21st birthday AND JY's one as well. 

Everything is going unwell for me. I hate everything... Yeah judge me, Im really sick and tired of life. Just need some space for my rantings. I don't wanna study, I hate stress, I don't wanna work, I hate working. Yes I know this makes me a good-for-nothing and a wasteful resource in this society lol.

I wonder who understands what am I feeling right now. 

Anyway just some visual updates of my f up life:

Addicted to Merely Ice Cream's waffle deal recently

Attended A's POP few weeks ago and it was raining omg MY SHORTS WERE SOAKING PLEASE. The free ponchos are damn useless okay. JUST A SLIGHT MOVE AND THERE YOU GO, torn ponchos.

Yeah joyful faces before bracing through the rainstorm

I love this picture because of the MBS background!

(Tiptoe cause I've ran out of pose HAHAHAHA)

FYI: I'm okay with my height, i'm perfectly fine. I'll never understand why does women complain about being short? There are many advantages of being "not tall" :

• Determined as Cute
• High heels are suitable for you
• You won't be tasked to do "high element" job due to your height constraint
• Easier to get boyf
• Getting a nickname: Xiaomei/ah girl
• Friends tend to treat you slightly better : treating you as their little sister

Disadvantages:

1. If there's a crowd, you won't be able to watch any performance on stage.

But if you have a tall boyf, you can easily request him to lift you up. Therefore, I'm not at a disadvantage at all (Y)

#randomthoughts

I'm feeling so elated right now and I feel that I should proudly announce on my blog. 

Know what does this image means?

A balloon has burst. As simple as ABC.

Everything has a limit. Nothing is unlimited, when it comes to tolerance, anger, itchiness, etc. Same goes to humans. You know why I'm so excited to share with you guys about my feeeeelings? Because tonight I realized I could no longer take it anymore. Meaning? My balloon for has burst. (refer to image above)

Q: How do I even know I have reached my limit?

A: It is really very simple. When you find yourself happy instead of angry, when you realise you have stopped checking your phone EVERY single time. Let's quote a simple example. Usually when i'm upset/angry, I will still check my phone constantly, waiting for that-kind-of-comforting-messages, without fail. I mean, I really bring my phone with me everywhere, even when I need to use the bathroom. Because I'm afraid that I might miss out an important call. 

& now...? I simply dumped my phone aside, excitedly writing this post to share about my burst balloon. LOLOLOL.

Another 6 days of torture :(

Life is kinda boring starting from tomorrow onwards. Just 1 more weekend before JY's fieldcamp is here omg I don't even wanna think about it :'( Although the first confinement period of 18 days was terrible, at least they have adequate Admin Time to hear his voice. This time round, it's 6 consecutive days WITHOUT ANY INTERACTION. The fuck...

Taken last week while enjoying my Thai Food with JY

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Had an awesome Friday & Saturday with him again this weekend. :)

What is he drawing?!?!

(this is just part of it, we wrote many many more messages for each other :P)

He drew that stickman representing us. WELL DONE LOR, he is BALD. HAHAHAHAH!! JY LOOK HERE: Stop reading my previous post again and again ho. I know you are a guy who thinks a lot just like girls. Please. When you get to read your fieldcamp letter from yours truly, you better dont ask your peers for tissue paper ok. :D

Q: What is my life goal?

A: I have no goals. I can't visualise myself working in an office from Mon-Fri, 9am to 6pm and might even need to OT on certain days. 

Click only if you are prepared to read a typical ranting post by a 20 year old Singaporean, female.

Quick update (post-intern)

Hi, back from update because I can't really find anything else to share on my blog. So the most commonly asked question after my Internship ended: 

"Are you going back to your school after Intern?" 

Honestly i'm sick & tired of answering this question AGAIN & AGAIN. When I first started my internship, I have already answered this QUESTION. Everybody's asking me which year I am right now, I told them I defer a semester, so after this I have graduated (unofficially though). URGH

"Why you don't want to continue working with SavillsCKH?"

Honestly throughout the entire 5 months, all I can think of is to LEAVE this company as far as possible. I have no intentions of extending my contract with them after seeing how they treat me like a ball, roving assignment here & there when other employees are on leave. I mean, I detest this feeling of being kicked around. I have just stabilized my work over HERE, and the next moment I got allocated to somewhere ULU. If it's nearer to my house I dont mind la. Sigh whatever it's over, forget it, i'm not a petty person. I know HR has no other options but to maximize usage of cheap labour a.k.a. INTERNEES PAID @ $500/MONTH. 

"So what are you doing right now?"

ROT AT HOME. NUA UNTIL I DIE. NAH JUST KIDDING. Yes I'm currently rotting my life away. I didn't realise life is sooo boring without work. Time passes too slow & I'm constantly whining for $$. No i'm not a spoilt brat, i'm in the midst of finding temporary jobs/event jobs. Currently waiting for certain event jobs to start at a later date. I'm also looking for temporary admin/data-entry jobs. My typing skills are fast, accurate and superb. Please don't doubt my typing skills HAHAHA. So ya, anybody who has job lobangs after 16th Oct PLEASE CONTACT ME @ mandyshl20@hotmail.com xiexieni! ^^ 

...That's about it.

Tuesday: made a trip down to Fortune Centre to visit my beloved colleagues! I miss them SO MUCH I SWEAR. Had lunch @ bugis+ followed by ice-cream treat by J :D Everything changed. I miss visiting old workplace. I love to feel that time passed in a blink of an eye. IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IN WORDS. You get what I mean anyway.

Thursday: Finally build up my courage to swim alone! Yes I'm so proud of myself because I step out of my comfort zone + swimming without friends is actually MORE effective. Why? Nobody to talk to, you can only think of completing 1 lap. Initially it was really awkward for me because there ISNT any women swimming in the competition pool. Dang, everybody else are... guyz. I set a target of swimming at least 5 laps before I leave, end up I continued to swim till 10 laps! *pats on shoulder* 10 laps may be nothing for some of you but it's a huge improvement for me! The maximum laps I can swim (with my friends) are 3-4 laps. Seriously. I took >5 minutes between HALF a lap ok. Damn slack, feels like I'm playing with water instead. Mission accomplished & I look forward to swimming alone again next week! (Y)

I also shopped alone @ PS after running some errands. Feels so great to shop alone. Life isn't that bad afterall... (excluding the part whereby I have to maintain my figure & adjust my diet)

I love to visit qoo10.sg frequently (that describes why I'm upgraded to VIP member of Gmarket :P) so I ordered this high waist skirt in mustard for S$8.90 only! 

The quality is there (in terms of sheerness) but the material... is not as firm as those you see in Bugis street. As you can see from the 1st picture, it's crumbled uh. So when I wear it to my waist level, the lines of the skirt is in a mess! What to expect since it's so cheap. May consider stocking up different colours HAHAHA

Rant: Why eggs are good for you

"Eggs help you to lose weight"

Kns 9 out of 10 articles related to Beneficial of Eggs wrote that. Don't even know if this is true, I love eating anything with EGGS, it's like a must for me to ADD egg into my main course (if there's a choice). 

As quoted from HERE, "a study carried out by the Rochester Center for Obesity Research found that eating eggs for breakfast helps limit your calorie intake all day, by more than 400 calories. That means you could lose three pounds or more per month"

According to HERE:

• 61% greater reduction in BMI
• 65% more weight loss
• 34% greater reduction in waist circumference
• 16% greater reduction in body fat

I see none of these x.x why is this happening. I believe you guys always spot EGGS as part of my breakfast/lunch as posted on instagram. 

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So tired of maintaining a good figure. Life is just so... shitty.

x Sunday

It's been long since I have my entire home to myself on a (rainy) Sunday. Yes, my ITP ended 2 days ago, Friday the 13th. Life's good, Internship got a little more interesting & less boring with the new Internee who took over my job! Wrote personalised farewell message to every site I've been to, thanking them & most of them mentioned "Keep in touch", "you have been a great help to us", "My personal email & contact is...." etc. Although I want to get out of my ITP asap, if there's a job title called "roving assignment within different condominium", I'll definitely continue with my company! Sadly, it's either they want to train me as Property Officer or I choose to be their Admin & Acct Assistant. Sigh. Goodbye anyway~

Went back to Ritz yesterday after MIA-ing for 5 months+. That nostalgic feeling... Nevertheless it feels great to be back in the place where I grew up, met different people, had mini crushes/eye-candy, a place filled with endless memories & last but not least, I found my prince charming wearing a jacket, in-charge of my welfare :) 

Anyhow, I feel kinda absurd when people tell me "Why you come back?" "I thought you don't wanna work here anymore?" excluding all the "you've become fatter and fatter leh..." comments because all these are absolutely unnecessary for me lah. Our job scope involves serving and clearing, it's not like only skinny people can fit in this job. Initially I admit I got so affected by the redundant comments about MY appearance to the extent I'll always whine my frustrations to JY. As time passes, I've come to a point that I don't even bother about such "wu liao" judgement. Even if I'm as fat like this:

It is MY business ok? #justsaying because certain group of people ALWAYS judge my figure for >2 times leh. I don't get it why they have to repeat their redundant opinions to me eh. Probably they want to start a conversation with me but can't find an appropriate topic? HAHA. Anyway, I can differentiate "just-saying" comments & "really-feel-that-Mandy-is-fat-and-I-should-remind-her". I'm not referring to ANYBODY who says im fat lah! Some friends are making a joke out of it of course I don't even blame them! KTHX. I appreciate your concern & here's an award for you!

*change the date to 15th of September in the year 2013* 

K enough of rants. P.S. Don't anyhow jump into conclusions that "Oh, Mandy is referring to xxx leh". -_-

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Just 12 more days. I'm getting happier each day because I can feel the excitement! JY is proud of me for not tearing even though I've not seen him for ~1 week. Frankly speaking I start to miss him since yesterday. 

I'm requesting for another head massage from YOU when your confinement ends :p

I don't care whether you're tired or what, I want massage session again! 

♥ing you always! (I have to repeat this everytime because JY is feeling extremely insecure during his confinement!)

Two

I. have. nothing. much. to. blog. about.

Halfway thru....

How's everybody living in Singapore? Yes I know, the PSI (Pollutant Standard Index) level is seriously absurd. At times, I really feel that NEA's updates on PSI level is not accurate at all. I've also heard people (from fb / twitter) mentioning that the actual level is WAY higher than what they posted. They are just averaging out the 3-hour level. Suddenly, I miss the fresh & clear sky. 

Although I'm very very displeased with the current situation now (My hair, clothes and body stinks. I was gasping for fresh air/holding my breath whenever I'm outdoor etc), the haze actually kills insects. I was walking along Henderson blocks & I saw COUNTLESS dead bodies of cockroaches. I'm not kidding. The entire path is filled with their dead bodies I have no idea why. This is the only positive side I can think of. Other than that, it's really killing us. 

What my friend said was right, the Council will continue to inform us to stay indoors etc, ignoring the fact that everybody is travelling in the early morning be it work/school. They will only take actions when somebody FAINTS from this lousy weather. I'm glad that I did not take MRT transportation during this period because I heard it's super stuffy, you're basically suffocating yourself with the rest. I've been taking buses all these while & at least I have a seat, nobody to squeeze together with me. P.S. try to take those newer bus versions, I don't know why but their air is fresher. 

I've a really great plan for this coming weekend, please rain & haze haze go away *crosses ALL fingers*

Anyway, here are some 9gag pictures related to Singapore Haze. Credit goes to relevant people, NOT MINE.

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Finally received my free samples from Hada Labo ^^ Whitening Lotion & Cleansing oil make up remover!

They are really generous because my package includes 1 whitening lotion bottle & THREE Cleansing oil! YAY!

Actually I just love receiving free items. This is for whitening PURPOSE, which I have absolute no interest.... Probably i'll give to my friends. Anybody wants to be fairer? It's a lotion (also a toner).

TBH, I do find my blog kinda dead yet I have no outstanding post at all. So just post random stuff to make it more lively!

Attn: Gamers

This post is full of shit so maybe you wanna skip it.